Im Back :)

Ok well it has been a while since i have posted on here but what can i say, i really couldnt be asked ... So, i have been very busy since the start of the year actually but whats new. I am taking part in a drama competition with the local drama group and we have passed the first 2 stages and are off to the scottish finals in may, so i am EXTREMELY excited about this! It is a privilege that i get to perform with some lovely people but i just wish i would get support from family and friends. I know they say well done and all that, but when none of them can bother going out of their way to come and see you perform then what is the point? And if we pass the scottish finals then we get to perform in Swindon in the British finals but lets just take it one day at a time! So anyway, i have been working of course, got about a month left of school then we are on study leave for our exams, and i HOPE that my passport will come in time so i can go to germany cause i really want to go! i will be working extra hours over the holidays of course and then i hope to go and see some friends in  Wakefield but i dont know if my mum will let me go so i am kinda bummed about this! My middle sister is currently in greece and she is enjoying herself there, it is only natural i feel jealous but i dont mind cause i know that i will be the next one :) i am also going to see Lee Evans in October with a best mate so i cannot WAIT for this! :D  but apart from that, i am currently sorting out the Duke of Edinburgh award, it is a pain in the arse and i wish i hadnt done it. My "friends" who pressured me into doing it pulled out and i stayed doing it and it is challenging but the only thing that is keeping me on it is the residential we get to do next year and we are thinking about going to the Carribbean and working with an orphanage! so i really hope this happens but we have ALOT of fundraising to do before that! I also have my english folio that i need to finish before our holidays are over so i need to get a move on that! So yeah, that is that! Also the army stopped ringing me thank god! I was going to apologise to them but i never got that call again .....

"The Army Rang ..."

Ok well, as my sister is away in our home land, we rarely speak, amongst other family problems, but when we do speak we try and make it an entertaining conversation, so when she decided to tell me she had signed me up to the army my first reaction was a laugh. But as she carried on explaining to me what they would so and send me, i began to realise this was more than a joke between 2 sisters, she was in fact telling the truth. For many reasons, we dont get on and her signing me up to the army adds to the list of disagreements we have. Of course, i can pull out of the army but thats not the point. After having a chat with them on the phone this morning, i realised that this was yet another company i was messing about. And this time, it was really out of order. I know i dont want to go to the army, its not for me, and i will have to be the one who has the awkward conversation with them telling them it was all a mere prank. I doubt they will see the funny side, i dont see this to be humorous one bit as there are good men and women dieing out there and here i am wasting their time. So due to curiosity i will look at the information pack and hope and pray that something in that pack interests me! 

Holidays

In about 3 weeks i am off to the mainland to watch a dancer, whom i adore, in his tour. This i cannot wait for but i have my reserves about it. Not because i'm not excited, im over the moon, but i have slight concerns over the high expectations i have for this trip and that they wont be met. Its worrying enough the fact a teenager has to pay for a trip to germany and america by herself, but the constant reminder of purchasing things i dont need are always there and im sick of it! Maybe when i get there it wont be too bad. Instead of diving head first in the deep end, i really need to weigh up the whole situation. I am sure i will have fun, and spend alot of money, but id rather do it then wishing i had. I hope that after this trip i can put alot of rubbish behind, mostly concerning "friends" (but we all have those problems) and that i can say "i dont care" and mean it.
Well, until next time ... x

The start of a new age ...

Welcome 2011, how glad you are finally here. A year for change and losing weight .... ok whatever, this year is going to be the same as any other year. If we want to lose weight that much we wouldn't wait months to begin. Every year will be different, personally i hope this year is better than previous ones. Not going into much detail but i am prepared for what this year braces me with. Amongst all the travelling i am expecting to do, i cannot wait to get out of school and become independent. Of course, this is all talk but im ready to put it into practice. This is my first shot at a blog, im not the computer whizz but it is something that interests me and i hope it will help me with my low level skills! Anyway, im going to get started and hope for the best! x